J'ai compris tous les mots, j'ai bien compris, merci

Raisonnable et nouveau, c'est ainsi par ici

Que les choses ont changé, que les fleurs ont fané

Que le temps d'avant, c'etait le temps d'avant

Que si tout zappe et lasse, les amours aussi passent

Il faut que tu saches

J'irai chercher ton coeur si tu l'emportes ailleurs

Même si dans tes danses d'autres dansent tes heures

J'irai chercher ton ame dans les froids dans les flammes

Je te jetterai des sorts pour que tu m'aimes encore

Fallait pas commencer m'attirer me toucher

Fallait pas tant donner moi je sais pas jouer

On me dit qu'aujourd'hui, on me dit que les autres font ainsi

Je ne suis pas les autres

Avant que l'on s'attache, avant que l'on se gache

Je veux que tu saches

J'irai chercher ton coeur si tu l'emportes ailleurs

Même si dans tes danses d'autres dansent tes heures

J'irai chercher ton ame dans les froids dans les flammes

Je te jetterai des sorts pour que tu m'aimes encore

Je trouverai des langages pour chanter tes louanges

Je ferai nos bagages pour d'infinies vendanges

Les formules magiques des marabouts d'Afrique

Je les dirai sans remords pour que tu m'aimes encore

Je m'inventerai reine pour que tu me retiennes

Je me ferai nouvelle pour que le feu reprenne

Je deviendrai ces autres qui te donnent du plaisir

Vos jeux seront les notres si tel est ton desir

Plus brillante plus belle pour une autre etincelle

Je me changerai en or pour que tu m'aimes encore

21st: from Minor to Major

What has changed?

My signature carries legal value, I can be declared bankrupt, I can officially watch R(A) movies, I'm allowed into more clubs... Responsibility.

I'm officially my own man. Independent.

Parents, at least Chinese ones, dread this day. The day whereby we officially "chi4 bang3 ying4 le4" = "wings are hard now". The Age of Majority. How many times have I heard my mother say, "when you hit 21 then see how... when you hit 21 then you'll see.. when you hit 21...."

Well mom, 21 is 32mins away.

She just asked me, "Are you happy?", I assume about the dinner at the Brazillian place on sixth ave, the generous gift from both of them, and the ice-cream cake.

But it made me think. For a moment. Am I happy?

Yeah. I am. I may be cynical at times, jaded at most, even display traces of malcontent, but when it comes down to true happiness - yes I am.

I have what I want. Great relationship, great friendships, family trying to be as supportive as possible, good education, a well-rounded lifestyle. I am happy.

Yet, why do I feel a nagging self-doubt? Almost like I have more to prove because i'm 21; an adult. Like I can't depend on my youth to get away with as much things as I have. Really, is hitting 21 a blessing? How many times I hear people lament about their youthful days, wishing they were younger and that they can do it all over again.

I bet this is one of the more enjoyable times of my life, being an undergrad. And that I will miss it once it's over. Yes, live life to the fullest. But why do I constantly worry that I'm not. That i'm missing out. That I will regret. Paranoia?

When I was asked to make a wish at the birthday cake just, I really couldn't think of anything material to wish for. Not any new shoes, new clothes, new laptop, paid vacation. Nothing of sort. Is this adulthood? hahaha!

Beyond 21, no more "official stages" in a person's lifespan.

I am happy. I'm an adult. Jeremy has came of age. The Age of Majority. Time to live, in the real world. 5mins to adulthood.

Happy 21st Birthday Jeremy. Live well.

Thinkin of you ;)

If I never feel you in my arms again, If I never feel your tender kiss again, If I never hear I love you now and then, Will I never make love to you once again? Please understand... if love ends, then I promise you, I promise you that that i shall never breathe again, breathe again, breathe again, that i shall never breathe again  And I can't stop thinking about about the way things used to be, and i can't stop thinking about, about the love that you made to me, and i can't get you out of my head, how in the world will i begin to let you walk right out my life and blow my heart away? and i can't stop caring about about the apple of my eye and i can't stop doing without without the center of my life and i can't get you out of my head and I know I can't pretend, that I won't die if you decide you won't see me again    And I can't stop thinking about about the way my life would be, No, I can't stop thinking about, how could you love me then leave? and i can't get you out of my mind, God knows how hard I've tried, and if you walk right out my life God knows I'd surely die and i can't stop doing without without the wailing of my heart no i can't stop doing without for i would surely fall apart and i can't get you out of my mind and I know I can't deny it and I would die if you decide you won't see me again...

I Love Singapore because...

We speak english, sometimes.....

Just kill me already! LOLOL! ROFL!

Quote a friend, Rey: "Actually it's Leper prins, Zipbra prins, kucky grin, booms, piss off bigeeni (with jins of course), and all the above must be Rat and Lout."

The Great Leap Forward

Hello Jeremy.

Do you know that tomorrow will be your first day of the rest of your life; your university life begins. Really, it kind of marks the start of you taking charge of your education and the path you want to take in life.

I know as I am writing this, it is actually time for you to hit the sack because you are still nursing a sore throat and lethargy from all that partying a few days ago. So please, take care of your health.

I cannot believe it is the day tomorrow. When University life begins.

How long ago was it that you were at your first day at MDC? Looking lost and feeling overwhelmed by all those talents. Feeling that you finally belong somewhere in National Service.

How long ago was it when you first shaved your head at BMT, marched, climbed and did all those memorable but dreadful things.

How long ago were you still in Junior College, pinning at the day you will begin University life. Mugging for your A Levels. Admiring the Undergraduate lifestyle and "coolness".

How long ago was it when you have constantly dreamed to be a Lawyer and the excitement of law school.

Oh Jeremy, how life have spun you around. Secured and excited with a place in Business School now. Anticipating yet, still very afraid of the new environment and study load.

Who knows what's going to happen in these 4 years ahead for you. Opportunities of friendship, of academic growth, intellectual maturity, cultural exchanges, vibrant travels...

Who knew you would one day be in SMU LKCSB and be very content and happy for yourself. Who knew that you would become the person you are today, "burdened" with the task to succeed.

Who knows what I will write to you, 4 years down the road, when you have landed your first job.

All I can tell you is that it is going to be an arduous journey. Lots of ups and downs and middles. Lots of news, olds.

C'mon Jeremy. Let's start our journey together in 8 hours time. Have fun and remember to stay true to yourself.

C'est la chose la plus importante!

Love,

Jeremy Ho Jia Jun, B.BM

-jho.sleep.

Lady GaGa - Live in Singapore 2009. "Haus of GaGa",

The concert was just awesome! Partied like mad! Screamed, hollered, shouted, danced, played.

She was just awesome. In a time where pop stars start to look and sound alike, none different from every other, GaGa is just a breath of fresh air!

Catchy tunes, powerful fashion, good singing and control, shock factor. Love her! I hope she goes real far and be the NEXT MADONNA!

The opening act was Dharni and DJ Inquisitive. Very good set. New stuff from Dharni. Good job bro! You make us all proud! Dharni, btw, is the 8th in the International BeatBoxing Championships in Berlin this year. And the TOP contender in Asia, i.e. Asia's No. 1!

Sorry bad photo. Haha. I have better ones on Facebook.

We had to wait from 8pm till 9pm (opening set finished at 8:40) before Lady GaGa came on. Was quite tired by then.

Took this photo while waiting. Went with Ray and my sis. The plastic fans that F1 gave out was really really useful in the suffocating heat.

When she came on, woah! Energy just rushed back!

She opened with Paparazzi, hidden in some form of a formation with three shields. Such a powerful song to open with. I'm still having the goosebumps reliving that exact moment when she came on.

Following that, she did a few numbers, can't remember the order. She performed Beautiful Dirty Rich, The Fame and Love Game next.

Didn't really use to like the song Eh, Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say) but somehow it fit the set very well. It was a Sing-along song with her and some silly action with the fingers and hands. Very lovely!

She did Just Dance and it was just party party party!

It was about here where she said that she loved Singapore's Chilli Crabs and the crowd went wild! Haha. Apparently, this concert was the "biggest crowd she ever drew by herself". She said it was about 10,000 people. Who knew...

Also, before she did Money Honey, she always asks "What do I hate most in the world?", and the crowd was like - - - - - -. I screamed "MONEY!" My sis asked me how i knew.. Haha. GaGa fan babe! C'est moi!

Look at her mic stand! I want that too! Darn cool.

I love it when she sang Boys, Boys, Boys! Before the song she said, "Where are all my gay boys at?!" and the whole park was like - - - - - - - - -. I don't know what got into me, concert high i suppose, I just stood up and SCREAAAMMMED! LOL. I think I made quite the fool of myself that evening..

Took a quote from her concert, everyone laughed when she said, "I'm just a blonde bitch with bubbles". OMG. GaGa. You rock! "Motherfucker", "fuck", "fuck you" were extensively used as well. Yeah...

It was about here when she did Brown Eyes.

Of course, how can she end her concert without doing her MEGA HIT, Poker Face! She did the acoustic version, asking the audience to sing along first. Finally bursting into the heavy beats and powerful synths! The crowd went mad!!!!!!

Sensational Songs. Pulsating Performance. Absurd Fashion. Expletives. Only One Lady GaGa.

-jho.convocation.

Bondue 2009, Biz Sch Rocks!

The past few days have been a blast! Literally!

11th August

Arrived at Lee Kong Chian School of Business (LKCSB) concourse. Lots of people with sleeping bags etc. Didn't really need to bring much, stuffed all my sleep gear in my locker few days ago when I had to car to drive down. How forward thinking de moi!

Day got off to an ok start. Got to know my group mates and made a few friends along the day.

If you love to party, SMU Biz is the school TO GO! The first day was mainly filled with dirty, crazy activities. Round one, station games or rather, games where they put

mud, soy sauce, sand, powdered detergent, toothpaste, chilli sauce, ketchup, oyster sauce, fruits, peanut butter, wasabi, chocolate sauce, flour, dirt water, vegetables, poultry

in and on your

hair, shirt, shorts, underwear, face, mouth, nose, eyes, body.

ALL the games included something dirty. There were 10 stations of such games, and I will mention one or two.

Game: Play captain's ball with poultry from the supermarket. No ball. The uncooked full chicken is the ball. Forfeit? My team won, so, rub a piece of large squid with flour on the inside on our faces. The losing team? Pass uncooked bloody chicken thigh with their mouths from one team member to the next, timed.

Game: Put on a bra, roll on matt covered with some of the above rubbish and loads of soap water. Collect as much sponges as possible, run to end of matt to squeeze dry sponges and wet clothes. Collect most amount of water to win.

Bonus points, get as dirty as possible. Roll in pool of mud. Dirtiest team gets bonus points.

There are 8 more of such games. Surprisingly - and i'm not one for such crazy games - I had loads of fun! I suppose because the direction of the games was not so much of "forced team bonding", more of HAVE A CRAZY DIRTY FUCKING TIME! :D

@ Night was Fright night. They constructed 4 rooms in school and made a haunted house concept. It was quite good i must say. I screamed in the last room; a toilet with red painted over the entire mirror and basin, and "live corpses" around the floor and in the cubicles. No points for guessing when I screamed! Haha. They came charging in a small space. Scary.

12th August

Amazing race day. Went around Singapore and did many many silly activities. At the end of the day, the most "daring" activity was to force two guys/ a guy and a girl to kiss and/or pass tiny pieces of food to each other with our mouths.

Shows how sexually concerned and reserved Singaporeans are really. To have that as the biggest dare option. Haha. Like, it has almost become predictable after the 5th station.

Because the face paint station happened to be our first, my group had to walk all around town area with our faces in red & white Ronald MacDonald style paint. Caught quite a bit of attention there :) Haha. Fun.

@ Night - I went for Lady GaGa's Concert! More on that next!!

After the concert, it was back to partying again in the school. Abundance of alcohol, with drinking games and the seminar room converted into a dance floor and a DJ! Cool shit! Danced and sweat my night. Was quite sloshed. Don't even remember half of what I did that night. Well, maybe not ;) Now recovering from a sore throat and cold from that night. Hollered, cheered too much in one evening. Pain. Lost my clubbing streak and staying power years ago.. hahha.. aiyo, i'm so "old".

Picture from the drinking games in our room.

13th August

Break Camp. Most of the "alcohol people" woke at about 10am. One team only woke at about 12pm! Haha. Good memories. Good fun :)

Now. Reality Check. Time-table's out. Materials uploaded by professors.

Two years 8 months of zero contact with a full length essay and now..... Classes are starting.....

-jho. blog. teach.